every once and a while you have one of those days. you wake up after going to bed to late after a week of being a full time student and 40+ hours of waitressing a week, realize you have to leave for work, again, in ten minutes for a double shift, equaling out at about 11 hours, and you just feel like general crap. it's pouring outside and densely gray and the cold sticks to every part of your body, your clothes stay damp for hours after you walked to work in the rain and the tea or coffee you drink to warm up just doesn't taste right. Once you get off work, it's already dark out and you have to slightly force yourself to go out and be social where you just end up feeling awkward and out of place. Walking home defeated and still cold it's hard not to think about things that haven't worked out even if they are completely out of your control, everything once decidedly valid is thrown up in the air and feeling gloomed and doomed seems like your sole option. You go straight to bed with the overwhelming feeling of a shortness of breath and a pain in your chest and head. Days like this can break you apart.
But then you wake up the next morning, and yeah sure you have work again, and school tomorrow, and it's still raining, and you're still cold, but for one reason or another you have got that one thought purposely stuck in your mind. The kind that makes you breathe in too far and your heart beat too fast. When you find yourself secretely smiling behind every corner and realize what a lunatic you must be for the things you thought about the night before. And in the end you know you're generally happy, healthy and in love.
Oh and you also book a plane ticket for France to spend one month this summer with some real great gals. WHAT!?
And drink some chamomile tea w/ lavender and eat biscuits with butter and jam while watching law and order with you dad and your dog.
Life is good.
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